Shiva

Credo di aver fatto un errore di valutazione. Non eri Vishnu, eri Shiva. Ed ho passato gli ultimi anni nell'attesa che arrivasse la mia distruttrice, quando invece eri già venuta e lasciato rovine al tuo passaggio. Un'attesa inutile, quando invece avrei dovuto spendere quel tempo nella ricostruzione.

I may have done an evaluation mistake. You weren't Vishnu, you were Shiva. And I have spent the last years waiting for my destroyer when you had already come to wreck havoc. A useless wait, when I should have spent my time rebuilding. 

Today as yesterday

“When a man is denied the right to live the life he believes in, he has no choice but to become an outlaw.” ― Nelson Mandela

Well done

When watching reality is beyond your capability.

Sometimes you lose it all.

Some people lose it all.

Dr. Flynn could have been a very happy wife. Taking the hand of a man she wanted all her life. Work and career came first that year, she wanted respect. But she was easy on the eyes and became the boss's pet. Oh, no no. The choices we make and things we say create the hands of fate. The things she did and words she said drove her man away. She pushed herself ignored her health and began to fall apart. Doomed is the soul who ignores their broken heart. Oh, no no no. Sometimes you lose it all. Some people lose it all. Desperate now for that love she found, but too ill and out of faith. She accepts the hand of a lonely old man who only knows her name. Down she fell to a private hell, the middle where no one dreams. Where beauty and brains are things she will not need. Oh, no no. Entitled girls who ignore the world with lies and make belief, Walk an easy road but wear cowards robes, When they face eternity. Oh, no no no. Sometimes you lose it all. We're all going to fall, But some people lose it all.

I told you a thousand times my dear...

...never to fall in love with a man 
Who's broken beyond all repair

If I told you once
I told you a thousand times my dear
Never to fall in love with a man 
Who drinks from the well of despair

I thought from the very start
I'd made it quite clear I fear
Now you're righteously fucked 
As you swing from the rope 
At the top of the stairs

If I told you once I told you twice
I was held in the grip of incurable vice
Lips turning blue like the shade of your eyes
Limbs shudder and twitch as you met your demise

You must've looked pretty as you stepped off the chair
Pink satin slippers how they danced in the air
Your dainty toes swelled to an alarming degree
Hope you were thinking of me
Hope you were thinking of me
Thinking of me

If I told you twice
I told you two thousand times my dear
Never to fall in love with a man 
Who's broken beyond all repair

I knew from the very start
You'd end up right here so queer
Now you've left me with naught 
But a suicide note and a lock of your hair

If I've mentioned it once I've mentioned it twice
I was bound in the throes of unearthly device
Radiance bloomed as I lay you to rest
Shadows of moonbeam alight in your breast

Deep in the ground where the worms have their feast
At last you can taste an incurable peace
Now that you're dead and you're finally free
Hope you were thinking of me
Hope you were thinking of me
Thinking of me

If I told you thrice
I told you three thousand times my dear
Never to fall in love with a man 
Who'd draw you into his lair

I warned from the very start
The end would be rather severe
Now your screams fall like vaporous 
Stones from your mouth into the night air

One time begat twice, that third time's the charm
Disregard it all lovey, it's signs of alarm
Skin milky white as you lie in repose
Tattered dress stained from the blood I suppose

So hollow and vacant, devoid of all light
Your epitaph written on our wedding night
As your muscles were twitching in their final plea

Hope you were thinking of me
Hope you were thinking of me
Thinking of me

Thinking of me
Thinking of me
Always thinking of me
Just me

In effigy

There's a bunch of keys on the table. There are some cigarettes on the sofa. There's a blood stain on the carpet. And the TV is on.

There's some cash close the keys. There's a wine bottle on the floor. There are two glasses on a tray. And the music softly comes from the TV.

There's a magazine close the cigarettes. There's a woman purse laid on the ground. There's a small, white hand that appears from behind the armchair.

There's the traffic noise getting in through the window. There are the neon lights reflecting in the room. There are people shouting on the road. There's a knife in my grasp.

There's a thick lock of red hair close the hand. There are two green eyes staring wide open. There are many freckles on a little nose. There's her snow white skin.

I didn't do it for love. I didn't do it for hatred. I just did want you to leave forever. But it didn't work.

She has hair as red as yours. She has the skin as white as yours. She has hands as small as yours. But she isn't you.

I did want you leaving my head. I did want you getting lost in the past. I did want to forget you. I did try to kill you in effigy.

In effigie

C'è un mazzo di chiavi sul tavolino. C'è un pacchetto di sigarette sul divano. C'è una macchia di sangue sul tappeto. E la TV è accesa.

Ci sono delle banconote vicino alle chiavi. C'è una bottiglia di vino  sul pavimento. Ci sono due bicchieri su un vassoio. E la musica esce soffusa dalla TV.

C'è una rivista aperta vicino alle sigarette. C'è una borsa da donna in terra. C'è una piccola mano bianca che compare da dietro la poltrona. E la finestra è aperta.

C'è il rumore del traffico che entra dalla finestra. Ci sono le luci dei neon che si riflettono nella stanza. Ci sono persone che gridano in strada. C'è un coltello nel mio pugno.

C'è una folta ciocca di capelli rossi vicino alla mano. Ci sono due occhi verdi sbarrati. Ci sono tante lentiggini su un naso piccolo e all'insù. C'è la sua pelle candida.

Non l'ho fatto per amore. Non l'ho fatto per odio. Volevo solo che te ne andassi per sempre. Ma non ha funzionato.

Lei ha i capelli rossi come i tuoi. Lei ha la pelle candida come la tua. Lei ha le mani piccole come le tue. Ma lei non è te.

Volevo che uscissi dalla mia testa. Volevo che ti perdessi nel passato. Volevo dimenticarti. Ho provato ad ucciderti in effigie.